Life is not easy as abc

Y must we compare one and another???

2011-02-25T00:02:00.000-08:00

Y must we compare everything with others??y we cant be special than others??if everyone likes apple y i cant fall in love in orange??y must i fall in love in apple too??i really dun understnd..im about to give up..u may say that im a lousy girl which easily give up when facing super small problems...but i dun like that happen in my life...i wan to live in happy and blissful life..regret..i hope i wont say tht word REGRET!!!..what does it mean by naturally??follow the flow??u understnd with these tems??..i wish to do things that i like..but i know im insist with my own way..is a bad thing..but plz dun compare here and there..!!!

God's Ways are Not Our Ways .= =

2011-01-29T10:35:00.000-08:00

1. He is infinite--we are finite.
2. He knows the end from the beginning while we see just a short part of the now.
3. He knows the whys, while we grasp for wisdom.
(In spite of our difficulty in understanding God's ways and thoughts, He in His mercy and promise provides.)
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts (scripture: Isaiah 55:8-9; KJV).

The part I really want to focus on is where it says, “neither are your ways my ways.” It wasn’t until I begin my Christian walk with God that I was able to realize the truth and reality of this bible verse; that in fact God’s ways are not our ways.

HOpefully God hear my prayer and wont trouble me..plz Lord...i have to walk on your way eventhough your way is not my way..I hope u'll undrstnd my feelings ..PLZ..

DOdo..^^

2011-01-25T08:50:00.000-08:00

DESIREE TEH KEN WEN..
she ask me to write a post for her..takan dun wan to write for her kan..hehehe

Her name is Dodo..no more desiree and so on..only dodo..hehe
she is my best sis in MMU cmpus..always kepit with me..go toilet also use the same room with me...still remeber both of us using the same toilet togetehr..i first then only her turn..(dun look bck )XD..very very very funny and sweet memories for me...keep on laughing..LOL!!!>
she help me lot though out the foundation in law..thanks alot ya sis..one day din call her cannt..i cnt stand it..(i try to sit but the feeling is still the same.XD)
she is a preety and cute girl..alot of guys come after her..too many choices ady.sometimes dun know which wan to grab.haha..many people talks bout her attitude toward boys..but i believe she know what is she doing..people may criticize u but dun think so much..juz think in positive side...the most importnat thing is u know what a u doing..thts all..i will alwys support u sis!!!..dun worry be happy!!!..
As i know she is a sensitive girl ...sw her emo so many times ady..when emo,she will keep quite.the face is black like charcoal..(no hard feeling ya,i know u wont)./
dun ever talk to her..another thing will make her emo is when she's not enough sleep...especilly when she slept at 5 or 6 in the morning then go to morning class at 10am..u can predict her facial expression ady.damn emo.XD..is facts..
I wan to thanks her for waking me up can say every day..quite often also..once she is on the way then she will sms to me( im going now) ,(going to reach in 5 minute),(where a u),(im in the class ady)..hahaa..then i will reply( ok,i go mandi now),(k2)(cmg)...
Ya,both of us like to share out our problems to each other..i also wonder how come i can so good with her..dun know still cnt answer y..anyway thanks Lord for bringing her and putting herin my life..tht is the precious moment tht i have..thanks Lord.^^
before this we had some misunderstanding but thank Lord everything is fine now..always remeber out treaty..have to remebr always k sis!!!..
I love u so much sis!!muacks..
U always be the victim when im emo or down..i like to leps geram on u..so sorry ya .but i feel happy and syok once i lepas geram on u ..hehe..we love to gossip too..talked about which guy is handsome but seldom talks about preety girls.hahaha..
sis,still rememebr Pan wei po???xD..handsome guy right..but u sy not handsome at all..still remeber u say my taste so low,teruk..but i like those noob2 wan..hahaxD..(juz kidding)..
Sem 3 is coming..tht day u ask me to give u an answer right..so sorry untill now i still cnt give u...morver i hope tht our friedship is still stronger than before.. A good friend is someone we can count on, as well as being so much more. A friend is someone with whom we can relax and just hang out, have fun and share our innermost thoughts, deep dark secrets, lofty and noble goals, or our hopes, joys, and fears.
i will be there for u sis..24/7 im available for u ..one day din see your sms appear on my hp or one day din talk with you my life miserable dy..haha(so les..but this is the truth feelings)..
Thanks to be a best friend of mine..Love u so much DO!!!...and miz u too..i hope u and aaron mark will last long to eternal life..may God bless u guys..rember to pray Him..have a good relationship with Lord..have faith on HIm cuz nothing is impossible in HIm..will alwys pray for u ...May God's mercy n goodness be with u in all your undertakings
..AMEN..^^

plz give me sometime..:(

2011-01-24T08:18:00.000-08:00

LOrd,i pray to u hardly..Lord,u are my father ,my provider and deliverer..Your mercy embrace me Lord,..surround me Lord..show me a way..i need some time to calm down my self..im not runing away from my problem Lord..i need time..I have no other helper than You, no other father,no other redeemer,I pray to You Lord..Despair grips me, i need U Lord..

I wont forget u=LORD...

2011-01-23T08:22:00.000-08:00

A Letter From God

Dear Friend,

How are you? I just had to send you a note to tell you how much I care about you.

I saw you yesterday as you were talking with your friends. I waited all day hoping you would want to talk to me, too. I gave you a sunset to close your day and a cool breeze to rest you -- and I waited. You never came. It hurt me, but I will love you because I am your friend.

I saw you sleeping last night and longed to touch your brow, so I spilled moonlight upon your face. Again I waited, wanting to rush down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you! You awoke and rushed off to work. My tears were the rain.

If you would only listen to me! I love you!

I whisper it in the leaves on the trees and breathe it in colors of flowers, shout it to you in mountain streams, give the birds love songs to sing. My love for you is deeper than the ocean, and bigger than the biggest need in your heart!

Ask me! Talk to me! Please don't forget me. I have so much to share with you!

I won't hassle you any further. It is your decision. I have chosen you and I will wait.

I love you. Your Friend,

God

I wont forget u Lord..i always remember u every minute and every second..I belive in you Lord..i give u my heart and my soul..i live for u alone..i need your guidance Lord..what should i do now??wht should i do?? T.T

2 sem is over!!!..^^

2011-01-21T21:17:00.000-08:00

long time did'nt update my blog ady..so sorry yea..hehe..sorry to my lovely blog..place for me to express my feelings and emotional..
however..2 sem is over...this sem past damn fast..dun knw what am i doing past 3 months..tody juz finish my last paper..PAL!!!..no comment about it ..but i know i do the best for this exam..not enough sleep.everynight sleep about 2 or 3 hours only..i hate it..dun like exam.but it is compulsory..sobs2...tomorw going back hometown..yeah!!..so happy..but miss melaka..miss my friends..i know u miss me too..can contact me 24 hours..im available for u ..^^

Today My Life Begins

2011-01-06T20:52:00.000-08:00

I fall in love with this song on 5-1-2011..
thanks shawn for posting this song on my fb wall..hehe
ya.. happiness will find me and leave the past behind me,
today my life begins...
i learn from my mistake...
"what failure"! you did'nt fail,you just got a wrong result..time to change your strategies and actions untill you get the results you wan..
SMILE...^^

im a stupid girl..

2011-01-05T07:18:00.000-08:00

Haiz..only the fifth day of 2011,i already faced so many problems ....
Y??..i wan a hppy and enjoyable life but.....
i feel im so stupid..cn say pig more clever than me..wanted to give up..fedup with my life..

2011

2011-01-03T11:53:00.000-08:00

Ths is my first post in 2011..
from 18 going to 19 ady..im such a big girl but still act like a small kid ..hehe
Thanks Lord for blessing me through this 18 years..i appreaciate it so much..
but in the first day of 2011..im not in a gud mood..many things happen in the same time...Complicated feelings..i tried to make it as simple as ABC but i cnt..
i start to complain to Lord y u do this to me..May be there have a reason back of it..I keep praying nonstop..I need your guidance to continue my life..
After i enter MMu,i learn alot about God's word.It always motivate me..thanks again..^^
I miss my family so much..wanted to go back and stay beside them..i Luv u MUm and DAd..I LUV u all so much..T.T..U all mean eveything to me...MIzzzz u all ssoooooo mmuuuccchhh....
I wish in this year i can learn many things ..better than 2010..for sure..^^..The most importnt thing s i wan a better health.everyday pain here pain there..quite worry about my health..im not tht strong anymore since young..i dun hope much but juz a healthy body..thts all..
Relationship between friends always there..hope that there is no any conflict happen between us...but i know is imposible...anyway always think positive..
other relationship for me if you are mine then for sure it would be..depands on our fate..i dun wan my reelationship to be so complicated..is not fun at all..sometimes totallly dun know how to do any decision..ask from my bestfriend's opinion..seriosuly they help me and give me moral support too..but the decision all depands on me.,btw have to thanks them cuz they are willig to hear all the problems of me..^^i LUv u..im try to ready my own self..i try my best....im so useless..run away from problem..dun dare to face it..i know thats not right..but..haiz..speechless...Only God know..

last day of 2010..

2010-12-30T09:49:00.000-08:00

tody is the the last day of 2010..i miss 2010..i learned alot within this 1 year..i learn how to pe patient,be independent,be optimist and so on..The most imporntnt thing is my relationship with God is near and no gap between us..i learnd alot of HIs word...in 2010 i learnd to drive car,learn to know the imporntnt of friends in my life..thanks God cuz give me so mnay friends..especially those true friend tht always stay in my life ...muackz...give u all a kiss..dun need to say thanks juz say welcome.(u understnd tht)..hehe
on 30th night im not that happy..i si beh bo syok..i hope u know how to care my feelings..girls feeling is damn ,superb sensitive..plz take note about that..sometimes u can juz say whatever u wan..u have to know about others feeling u know ..i dun know what are u thinking actually..but dun care so much la..haizzzz...
anyway in coming 2011..i hope everythng goes fine..May God bless all my understaking...^^..i wish that people beside me always happy and enjoy their life..spend their time wisely..i will always pray for them..^^.i hope that i have a better health in 2010,my family all are save,hppy and healthy...^^mayb cn find one.(hehe..xD),do2 always happy with aaronmark,friends foever with her (my lovely do2 and yo2),yo2 cn find a soulmate..hehe.i know she wan it..,have a gud result,enjoy my life and spend my time doing meaningful stuff..^^

Love and Time ^^

2010-12-29T00:29:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

time to update my blog..

2010-12-28T07:14:00.000-08:00

im back..about a week ady i leave my blog...dun worry.im back now..hehe
tody juz finish out PIL presentation..quite ok la overall..prepare it last minute ..haiz..im not that feeling well this morning..yesterdy slept at 4am..doing nothing..first time i felt that i waste my precious time..sometimes,i feel that im the one who like to follow the crowd..care about people's feeling more than my own feelings.haiz..hard for me to say NO..is not easy to say NO...u will hurt people's feelings easily with the simple word NO...
Juz forget about it..now busying with table tennis tournament on 8 of Jan.everyday have to train..time to nervous ady..i dun like the feeling ..i play table tennis since im standard4..i cant lost it...i spend alot of mone in buying pingpong bat and stuff..for my parent,they are willing to spend alot of money for me to buy those equitment..for them those are impornt and is nessesary things to buy..may b they wan me to continue in this sport..
3 more days to go to end 2010..have to good use of 2010..but how to good use of it????keep thinking..mayb someone can tell me ..^^

Santa Claus is Coming to Town..^^

2010-12-20T07:07:00.000-08:00

Cnt wait for 2010 Christmas..4 more days to go..woohoo..countdown every day,every hpur,every minute and every second..CheerZ!!!
2010 Christmas i will back to Mersing..i have to be there cuz have to play guitar for carolling..quite excited..^^.this year is the first time for me to play it during carolling..playing guitar around my hometown..from the first house to the last house..singing christmas song all night long..and the exact day which is on 25th of Dec,most probably got perfomance in my church..not yet do any preparation and all last minute..super power..haha..i belive with the blessing of the Father we are caapability to do it!..Amen..Glorify Your name..
Christmas is to commemorate the birth of Jesus.is a important day for us as a christian to celebrate with Jesus..Actually ,ar first before i knew that i need to play for carolling ,i had make up my mind to stay back here cuz my church over here got an event entitle Amazing Love...is a big perfomance and the sits is limited..is a new things for me too.but im dissapointed that i cnt attend ..my church mmber keep asking me to attend but i wanted to tell them that really sorry ..feel so guity and sorry to them..
Anyway ,next year may b i will stay on here and bring my self to the churh in Melaka..They booked me ady..hehe..btw i choose to back to my hometown actually is a good things too.i can preach gospel to my hometown cousin and friends..i wont forget my lovely God..everything that i do is all for Him.He is in my heart!..^^And i keep praying that anyone who are not believe in U,u may open their heart to accept u as their Lord..May my prayer works..^^

爱可以在多一点点吗？

2010-12-18T04:49:00.000-08:00

我可以擁有全世界卻沒有愛
我可以明白所有事卻還是空白
我可以用信心移山卻還是孤單
這世界沒有了愛一切仍是黑白
不要埋藏在心裡把愛說出來
不要默默在一旁把愛活出來
喔愛可以在更多一點點
不怕被傷害把靈魂鎖起來
愛可以在更多一點點
從天父來的愛把懼怕挪開
發現幸福在轉角與你相遇
一瞬間這世界變的好美

tody's service we sang this song..i got touch by this song and the lyric very meaningful and amazing for me..i should out from my circle ady..is time to do that.i dun wan to regret in the future..A little bit of love may change everything..

Cory ang is back to normal!!!! ^^

2010-12-15T08:37:00.000-08:00

Cory ang yuan yee..Yes is me..im back to normal ady...Thx Lord..Recently was so emo ..emotional breakdown..now im alright..100% alright..good job Cory..u learn something in your life ..u learn many things this few days..ths is called life..
thx to everyone beside me..i know im not alone in this world..many of u guys are care for me..^^
think alot is not a gud thing..i learn to think things simple,not that complicated as before..dun be scare.dun afraid ..Jesus is with me.i wan to walk on His path.i need his direction in my life and show me the amazing and wonderful world..I have faith in U Lord..i know u are there for me..^^Time to face all the problem by my ownself..i cant avoid anymore.it cant last forever if keep on doing this..this is not the solution..i learn my mistake..i know what should do..
Thx to her cuz tell me and make me realize that im actually in a wrong world..U pull me out frm this evil dream..im awake ady..i know what is going wrong.
I promise not to be so emotional..tody i attend cellgroup.i learn alot the word form Lord...Problem is juz temperoly appear in our life.Jesus told us that Dun be afraid.He is there for us and He will defeated the world.Evryone of us will be suffer..they is no easy life for us..John 16;33.

18th birthday present..

2010-12-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

14 of december 2010..i got my big present from my parents..for me is a wonderful gift cuz i wan it for a long time ago...thanks alot to my mum and dad..thanks alot.love u all so much..muackz...mum and dad-u all spend so much money on me..i appreciate it..luv u all forever..and for this present is not cheap..it cos RM 700..
my heart painful when take the money out from the back to buy a guitar...
Btw,thanks to shawn and adrian..thx alot guys..thx for wasting your time to fetch me there and choose the best guitar of all for me..im touch ..brought me to a few shops to look after it..spend about 3 hours ..seriously pai seh..thx ya bro..^^..

Prayer for a friend..^^

2010-12-13T20:11:00.000-08:00

Dear God, With this prayer
I call to mind my friends.
I ask for Your blessings on them.
May angels fill their nights
And bless their days.

May they find joy and peace and harmony.
May I be a source of happiness in their lives.
May our bond be strong and based on truth.

May they always know that
In me, they have support.
May I live a life that
Lives up to this prayer.

Thank you God...Amen.

A Box Full of Kisses

2010-12-13T06:59:00.000-08:00

The story goes that some time ago, a man punished his 3-year-old daughter for wasting a roll of gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and he became infuriated when the child tried to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree. Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift to her father the next morning and said, "This is for you, Daddy."

The man was embarrassed by his earlier overreaction, but his anger flared again when he found out the box was empty. He yelled at her, stating, "Don't you know, when you give someone a present, there is supposed to be something inside? The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and cried, "Oh, Daddy, it's not empty at all. I blew kisses into the box. They're all for you, Daddy."

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little girl, and he begged for her forgiveness.

Only a short time later, an accident took the life of the child. It is also told that her father kept that gold box by his bed for many years and, whenever he was discouraged, he would take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.

In a very real sense, each one of us, as humans beings, have been given a gold container filled with unconditional love and kisses... from our children, family members, friends, and God. There is simply no other possession, anyone could hold, more precious than this.

complicated..

2010-12-11T06:39:00.000-08:00

It’s not that simple, to find a companion to converse with Especially,after you have seen so much betrayal.Feel insecure,Just have to be brave enough,Who killed my romanceIt’s not that simple,To be able to love.Don’t want to look at others,become more practical
Maybe it’s good, maybe it’s bad, 50-50
Don’t like loneliness, after a while, it becomes a habit
Don’t need to worry about anyone,not controlled by anyone

When I feel happy, therefore very busy,When I feel tired, just let go of ownself
What others say, I’ll just simply listen,I’ll make my own decision,Don’t want to be too emotional.A cup of red wine and a movie,On a weekend night, turn off your handphone,relax comfortably on the sofa

To love each other, is not that simple,Each one have his/her own temper
After the age of daydreaming,Instead of noise, why not just have peace
It’s not that simple to have happiness,to make a person fascinated,the age when we don’t know anything was formerly the most (heart) moving, that’s why it’s was the happiest time,that was before.

Is a complicated feeling..==

Jesus...????

2010-12-08T08:03:00.000-08:00

do u believe in Jesus.almighty LOrd????DO u believe it?-i will answer Yes i believe in HIm..
Y do u believe in HIm??y if we beleive in other God we dun have any holy spirit with us???many question may b asked ...i cant answer it all..dun ask me y anymore.....
In this world,we cant answer all the Y..Y this world is exist?Y the world is round..Y YYYYYYYYYY and yyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate the word Y!!!
I only know tht In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through Him all things were made. John 1:1-3
The most important verse that we should know is For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life“. John 3:16
I believe in HIm...i need HIm in my life ..i Love u so much Jesus Christ!!!
Seek God now. Humbly ask Him to forgive you of your sins..Everyday we will gone through sin..i pray to u Lord...Plz forgive my sin...
I learn your word everyday..i pray to U everyday Lord..I hope i dun have any gap between us..I need to hear your voice Lord..I need your Holy spirit!!!..
once again Thanks a lot Lord..thanks for everything u had given to me..In my lovely jesus name i pray..AMEN!!!

best friend forever...

2010-12-06T08:13:00.001-08:00

There are big ships and small ships. But the best ship of all is friendship..
Everyone wants to have best friends forever..u can have a thousand friends but not a thousand true friend..A true friend will be there for you through thick and thin – good times and bad. It isn't too difficult to be friends with someone when life is filled with happiness and peace. It is something altogether different to have a friend who shares in your sadness and stays beside you even when things aren't going well. IM glad that someone there s one of my true friend..do u believe friend forever???..we love to tell our friend that friends forevr..but friend forever in our life..this is my experience..dun say friends forever anymore..but tell to our friend i appreciate u to be part of my life..^^You try to be so strong
But I always know when something's wrong ..this is a true friend will be..
Words you don't need to say,The sad that's on your face,Isn't hard to see through,I've been there once or twice,It's you that made things right
My turn to be there for you

not a simple job..

2010-12-06T00:56:00.000-08:00

everything is not easy as you thought...last week emo for a long period..im not that healthy anymore..ya i realize everything change..but there s a way to stop it ..i will do something so not things will not change that easily..some times face to face to talk out everything seems better..i'll try my best to do it..give me the strength to do it..i ask from u my Heavenly God..
i dun wan to be a sensitive person..and i dun wan to think so much..friends besides me always say that i am a person who likes to think alot...there are right..it means they understnd me..thanks..appreciate it ..^^
i seriouly think alot..damn alot..even a simple things also i think alot..think from many perpective..i dun know wheather that a good or bad thing...i need some advise from others to correct and to know im weakness...
juz tell me wheres my weaknesses..i dun mind..i learn from mistake..dun be shy to tell me..thanks..

= =

2010-11-30T12:20:00.000-08:00

Is 4.30am in the morning,i cnt sleep..feel so alone..dare not contact anyone..dun wn to contact anyone..feel like stying in the room and not going out to meet anyone...im not going to sleep to9..not because of i dun wan to sleep ..haiz..
many things keep playing in m mind..no one knows and understnd it..
everything change ...i feel like no one s for me to talk with..no one...

y i cnt control my feelings????

2010-11-30T02:20:00.000-08:00

suddenly form happy change to sad feelings...y??I don't know what is going on but I have been so overly emotional lately.i cant even answer this question..y so emo..dun emo la cory..abit2 emo...it does'nt bring any benefit to u girl..but still emo-ing..haiz..this few days not in a good mood.eventhough people see me hapy but im not at all..i hate my ownself ..I need to stop being so emotional..i have to stop it..what am i think of recently??may b too many problems happen this few days..one by one non stop..Lord,plz help me..sometimes i lost my faith in you..so sorry but do u hear my prayer??i need an answer from u lord..i try my self to continue the faith in u..plz show me something Lord..i need your strength Lord.seriously i need it.T.T
Life is full of problems.The more you solve them, the more new ones come up..im going to give up!..dun wan to face it anymore..T.T

haiz....T.T

2010-11-29T08:58:00.000-08:00

feel so sorry to all of u ..
so sorry man..TT
i dun have the right to say that to u ..
damn,..feel so stupid.im so stupid..
is ok if u mad of me and dun wan to forgive me.
what can i say is SORRY..TT
feel so useless man..stupid fool..
y am i so stupid ????!!!!!!T.T

《Making Love Out Of Nothing At All》

2010-11-26T12:27:00.000-08:00

I know just how to whisper
and I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
and I know just how to lie

I know just how to fake it
and I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
and then I know just when to dream

And I know just where to touch you
and I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
and I know when to let you loose

And I know the night is fading
and I know that time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
ev'rything I've got to tell you
But I know I've got to give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
and I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules and then
I know how to break them
and I always know the name of the game

But I don't know how to leave you
and I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all

This is my favourate song ever..^^i really love this song, but still, i dont understand what does it mean.i guess its like loving something with not necessarily have the reasons why you should... or without 'thinking' too much ..

i need u..==

2010-11-25T00:14:00.000-08:00

I Need u lord!!!
im down..dun know y feel so down..haiz..T.T
im so miserable now..y???
Father Lord,plz answer my prayer..plz..

officially 18 years old on 23-11-2010

2010-11-24T00:21:00.000-08:00

wow..finally im 18 ady..under malaysian law, section 2 of the age of the majority act 1971, u have become a major ady~
im damn happy this year..first time my friends celebrate from me..thx alot guys..very appreciate it..dun wan to lost u guys in my life..friends forevr.
thx to family(des,vivian,jeremy,heah and adrian)-thx so much guys..very love the presents form u all..im touched with the card and the cup..something very special for me..i wont forget it and always keep in my heart..
thx to yee en,pao,shawn,aaronmark-eventhough u guys are not in the list of family but u all are always in my heart too..thx for the watch yee en and do..u all so understnd me and know what i like and i dun like..thx ^^..thx for the keychain and a piece of handwrite birthday card.very touched too..thx alot..^^
thx to my hometown friends especially yo2,da xing and chua ..do so many things for me..im happy to bbq with u all..very pai seh din help u guys u all prepare everything all on your ownself..i din even hep much and juz eat..hehe..but i enjoyed it very much..^^
wanted to say thx to my family too..give so many angpau..will keep the money properly..i promise..hehe
for those who wish me though sms or fb serioulsy thx..from botm of my heart i got the wishes and blessings form u guys..May god bless all of u ..AMEN!!!

sorry..==

2010-11-18T06:01:00.000-08:00

so sorry to him..i know u done mnay things and sacrified all your time juz to do that..so sorry we did'nt appreciate it..haiz..feel so guity now..we have no any intention to hurt your feelings ...eventhough we critic too many things but we believe u can do even better than the previous wan..so sorry bro!..==we support u..plz dun do that decision...

没那麼简单..i luv the lyrics^^

2010-11-17T08:46:00.000-08:00

i fall in love with this song..and i like the lyrics..^^
Is not easy to deal with this type of stuf..juz wait and see..God will lead me and guide me to a better way..amen !!!

没那麼简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麼多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配
在周末晚上关上了
手机舒服窝在沙发裡

相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

i dun wan!!!!

2010-11-16T10:15:00.000-08:00

i dun wan to go tomorw~~==..
NO MOOOOOD!!!!!!!hait it..serioulsy hate it.!!Father Lord,plz help me..plz..T.T

this coming saturday...

2010-11-16T01:51:00.000-08:00

This coming saturday is pingpong tournament..im so worry of it.Dun know what makes me dun feel like playing on that day..dun know y....feel tired,moodless and many more..Y last sem im so active in training everyday..y this sem i lost those spirit???haiz..
WORRy....~!!!

heart attack..!!!

2010-11-15T05:13:00.000-08:00

at 6.00pm i lost my key...that time was sitting with adrian at clc booth...at first i thought he took the key and he keep laughing dun know y...i keep asking him izit u took my key babi!..dun play with me..he still laughing and say no..not me(smiling)...i dun believe that babi cuz he likes to fun of me..damn..im so nervous that time..and we went up to clc 2005 previos pcr class to find it..but still dun have..that time..many of them find for me..so so touch..hehe..winson,adrian,bread,timun,shawn,donkey and a few of them were helping me..thx alot guys..very apreciate it man!!!..conclusion-still cant find..
then i went to library to find..still dun have..haiz..that time i was so down..and walked back to ixora to find the mangemnt ....One of them came out and say girl,other time plz becareful..Not everytime u will be so luckly cuz we wanted to go home..office hour is over..damn..sounded by her some more...felt like going to slap her face..then she say pay 2 ringit first and i will open for u..i say can i get the spare key???she juz say NOPE..if u wan have to pay 40 ringit ..WTH!! so expensive..wanted to cut-throat izit..i think she wanted to duplicate a gold key for me..or many b a diamond key...WTF!!!
around 7 something finally i came in the room...i pray to the LORD...GOD,plz bless me..let the key appear from my sight..plz LORD..LORD answered my prayer..PRaise LORD..AMEN!!!!
finding about 20 minutes,at last..i saw my key!!!!i saw it babe!!!! its on my printer..
im juz wondering y adrian say he saw it in my bag and if im not mistaken i also saw it was in my bag.
Anyhow,im happy to find back my key...luv iT!!!..i wont be so carelss ady..i promise.!!!
such a GREAT day for me..!!!

dunno Y!!!!

2010-11-08T18:03:00.000-08:00

Last night,dunno y suddenly so down,so depressed,so emo...i cant control my feeling well..MY feelings getting over everythig....i find someone ..i need someone to accompany me...BUT....eveyone has their own problem..i dun wan to disturb their life..i dun wan them to sacrifice because of me...i really feel sorry to someone..So sorry..maybb because of me u guys always fight ad cause misunderstanding .
I can't sleep at all..my mind keep thinking...everything playing in my mind..Haizzz...
Im glad to have so many friends..but true friends only got 2..True friends is not easy too find .anyway im glad that now i still have a true friend in mmu..im so appreciate it..THx God..Thx HIm for giving me this good friend.i dunwan to lost her..y one by one get of from my life??old friend totally lost contact..b4 i came to mmu,we promise to each other we won't lost contact..but????HAizzzzzzzzz....T.T

what doen it mean by measure of a man>>????

2010-11-07T19:55:00.000-08:00

If one day you discover him
Broken down he's lost everything
No cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not
The woman at his side is all that he has got
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of every day
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?

Why do you ask him to move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth
Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up to be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

He never gives up
Lets go of his dream
His world goes around for his one true belief
Is that how you know
Is that what it means?

what it means>>???izit related with me???

Prayer for Blessing

2010-11-07T19:39:00.000-08:00

Dear Lord,
I want every single blessing
that You would love to give me.
Forgive me for not desiring
these enough to ask for them.
Please open Your heart, and be gracious to me.
You are good, and everything You do is good.
So let me experience You today,
in all of Your abundant loving kindess,
even though I am in all of my unworthiness.
Touch my life in ways that are very personal
so that I don't miss Your fingerprints.
Bless me, Lord, I pray -- bless me, indeed!
And I will praise You, from whom
all blessings flow.
Amen.

Dare not....

2010-11-07T04:01:00.000-08:00

y am i so scare of it??y??can anyone tell me y???haiz....
scare this scare that...wth!!!..hate it ..i hate myself.

Worries...

2010-11-05T19:21:00.000-07:00

worry about many things...this week too many thngs happen ady..keep praying to God..keep asking HIM..Father Lord,y i faced so many problem..y u make me so miserable????can u plz take it all away from me??plz Lord..plz....T.T
Im quiet worry about my health..yesterday after pingpong,my body damn weak..feels like vomiting..head damn painful and feels like fainting soon..my face look damn pale..
actually what happen to me??..i gone though this a few times ady..but it beamme even worst..scared to tell my parents..i dunw n them to worry about me..
Im worry about my gastric too..everyday gastric..im goin to die of gastric..is so paintful..hungry gastric..eat ful also gastric...hate it man..what to do with my stomach..!!!damn it..fedup man..
im worry of u too....damn worry about u ..plz back to normal k...luv u !!!

im back...^^

2010-11-03T02:51:00.000-07:00

Helo!!!...im back..long time din't update my blog ady...this few weeks busy for many things..dun know busy of what..==..haiz.
My to-do-list is getting longr and longer.to many things to do and to things..
assigment!!!!!(luv it so much man) ==..
This few days very emo..dun wan y can like that..my mind thought of many thngs..sometimes i cnt control my feelings..no one know me except the my lovely God...I LOVE U JESUS.!!..

im a person who too cares about people but it doesn't bring any benefits to me..but i wanted to say that MY FRIEND,I CARE ABOUT U!!!...
i hate this feelings..i dun like to see u sad..u know i wan to talk about u..i can say that u are part of my life now and ever..i appreciate our friendship..but i wish u could share your problems to me too..i dun mind..i feel sad and useless when see u like this..im your friend right???..for me u are the best of all..u understand my feelings..u know what am i thinking..u know what plays in my mind..anyway..Thank You, from the bottom of my heart,
For being My Friend !

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
- Anon

What does the phrase "I love you" mean?

2010-07-29T21:20:00.000-07:00

It is the smallest yet most meaningful sentence in the world.
It means that I like u more than anything in this world.
It means that I would like to be with you forever.
It means that its u that i value more than anything in this world.
It means that the only person I care about in this world is u.

love is the master key that opens the gate of happiness.money cant buy happiness ..
we live in this world all because of love..without love we wont we here..Famly luv is the most esential for us ..seriouly i can say that without family luv im no one ..

The phrase i luv you izit easy to say out to anyone ??what the feeling after saying that to a person who u like??..what will happen if u already said i luv u to him???What is the feeling??But i know the love from the heavenly God is the greatest of all!!^^...

im happy to see my friends got their own belover or soulmate..hehe..i hope they will appreciate and stay long with their relationship..Prove to the people that in luv doesnt inntrup your studies..prove it man!!!

nice song...i luv this song!!!^^

2010-07-29T20:48:00.000-07:00

i dun y the first time i heard this song,i fall in luv with it...
im the kind of people who like to hear those sad song..i dun know y .
but i really luv it..after i heard this song,i cry..was so touch!!

周杰伦 –說了再見

天涼了雨下了妳走了
清楚了我愛的遺失了
落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放放不掉淚在飄
妳看看妳看看不到
我假裝過去不重要
卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見才發現再也見不到
我不能就這樣失去妳的微笑
口紅待在桌角而妳我找不到
若角色對調妳說好不好

說了再見才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老永恆往那裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

天涼了雨下了妳走了
清楚了我愛的遺失了
落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放放不掉淚在飄
妳看看妳看看不到
我假裝過去不重要
卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見才發現再也見不到
我不能就這樣失去妳的微笑
口紅待在桌角而妳我找不到
若角色對調妳說好不好

妳的笑妳的好腦海裡一直在繞
我的手忘不了妳手的溫度
心碎了一地撿不回從前的心跳
身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老永恆往那裡找
再次擁抱一分

whose fault???

2010-06-14T01:30:00.000-07:00

why is it in the break up ,always is the guy fault?

Its not about man's fault, is about the contribution of the relationship. and what kind of relationship is it, if both of you take the relationship seriously, then it is both people faults, and who knows how many couples in the worlds take it serious? Why am i say so? because if one of them din't put much contribution in the relationship, it will ... See Moreaffect the result. Its not only 1 person's fault, and there's no fault for a relationship, is only about love, and people now always give wrong defination about love. Love is accept the person, and its not change that person become what you hope it is. So that's why people now always got failure in relationship. Because they always take things for granted and never appreciate.

LAW!!!!

2010-06-10T02:59:00.000-07:00

i took faundation in law in MMu..Law is not easy to study..do u know why i say so>>>???
b4 that , i have to say that for foundation i need to take 4 subjects which are english ,computer application,general principal of law, and malaysia legal history...only 4 subjects but is not easy to study..seriously i can say that cuz today i started my class with mdm maizatul for general principal of law..the lecturer looks young but she is very strict..btw i still like the way she lecture...this subject is so tough..really tough..i cnt imagine that for me chapter 1 already difficult then how about the following chapter???!!! i really cant imagine that...yesterday i had a thought to change my course..i scared cant follow up..so tension and stress!!!
but dun worry i wont turn backward..how difficult the course are i will study smart and score flying colours in my final exm..juz look foward for my life to achieve my goal!!.thats is the most important thing..ya,i believe that nothing is imposible in this world if we work hard ..gambateh!!!!

A week of orientation in mMu..

2010-06-10T02:27:00.000-07:00

During orientation week was so tired..everyday wake up at 6am and come back at 5 pm..
but was quiet fun too cuz know alot of friends from other states..for exmple yi min,carmen,eevon..these was my best friends during orientation week..we eat,talk and so on together...and the best thing was we always talked about handsome guy..hahah
i hope these 3 friends will last forever...miss them so much..
The most importnt thing was everyone was complain about the food there...the foods really sucks!!!oily like hell..i hate that!!
i still remeber my group was a yellow group and this group was wo famous every year..
and im glad to be part of this yellow group....HELO=YELLOW!!!!,,YELLOW ROCKS!!^^..
Morover,im so happy cuz the OC all kind,sportingand happeng..i knw to be a OC is not a simple job..it needs to be brave to talk infront of all freshies...really proud of them..i love u all my dear OCs....

mmU'S SONG...

2010-06-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

PERMATA DUNIA

kAMI perintis generasi multimedia
teguh mendukung harapan agung negara
menyahut seruan wawasan negara
ungul di mate dunia...

langkah seiring mengejar cita di hari muka\
akan terus maju bersama menuju jaya
ketulusan jiwa
semangat berusaha
ungul di mata dunia.....
chorus:

ke puncak menara dituju
keungulan cita yang luhur
melangkah kita bersama bersatu

bersinar permata negara
dikagumi serata dunia
selamanya akan gemilang
di persada dunia multimedia

terunguk di mata dunia.................

this is the song of mmu malacca and cyber...is a nice song..nice melody..nice lyrics..

30/5- registration day...

2010-05-30T08:32:00.000-07:00

around 5 am we push off from mersing..yuo came at 4.45...damn early..hahha
then,around 8 we reach mmu..when i saw the sigh board of mmu my heart beat was so fast..
and my hand is shivering...damn scared!!!..
the funny things is yuo seems like nothing but her hand was so cold and shiverring...
haha..NOOB!!..
superb many people tody...espially chinese..alot of prety girl here.huhu..yuo jeluz..hahahahahaa...
im quite satisfied my room..but the things that make me troublesom is no one is in the house..
i can say that the house is empty...im wonder last time when i called ixora they told us connfidently that all fully booked...damn stupid man!!!what is that!!!

eveyone is coming back to mersing on WESAk day..

2010-05-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

yeah!!..i waited for so long..they had been 3 week over there..
really miss them so much..^^
tody went out with them..the feeling was so great ..eveyone looks more matured ady..hehe
bsds that, they tell their story about the life in their own college.
eveyone said that the life was totally diffent with secondary school.but they really study hard to score 4 flat ..from morning study untill night.juz imgne how hardworking are they..slept at 3 morning and wake up at 6 .30 ..juz sleep for 3 hours,do u think is enough??.but they said that is enough good to sleep for 3 hours.OMG!!they are so struggle...anyway i hope they got flying colours in their exmination..AMEN..!

i luv GOD !!!

2010-05-26T12:03:00.000-07:00

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. -John 1:1

'We know that we live in him and he in us, because
he has given us of his Spirit.' -1 John 4:13.

GOD always luv us evryone and his mercy will be with us in all the undertaking..AMEN!!!

4 more days to go..

2010-05-26T07:04:00.000-07:00

get ready myself to face it..BUT...= =
hmmm..dun know how to describe my feelings..
everyone is saying goodbye to me and take care my ownself cuz no
one will look after me ady ..mst be independt ..
haizz...

going to church to9..

2010-05-22T02:21:00.000-07:00

long time did'nt attend youth fellowship ady..mayb this is the last time for me to attend b4 entering mmu this 30 of mei...
miss pastor and pastor's wife..she us really funny ..she is known as YUO and my "mother"..
haha..miss her jokes eventhough she din makes any of it..hehe super bad..
haha.really miss her so much..

juz smile...

2010-05-20T19:49:00.000-07:00

juz smile,smile and smile...whenever u're sad, a smile can take away the sadness..HOPE so...^^..If you smile With your fear and sorrow .Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

dont think so much...juz think possitive ..^^

12 days left...

2010-05-17T07:18:00.000-07:00

time pass superb fast...another 12 days to go..haizz..
how do i live without u ?? (u)-my family,my friends,my current land,and so on..
i really dun know how to answer it..cn i ???hmmm..
Live alone outside without anyone besides...juz imagine the situation is enough ady..
really dun wan to face it..How do i get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,What kind of life would that be?

friendship and love are two different things!

2010-04-23T11:44:00.000-07:00

plz think properly can or not???
do u know the meaning of friendship??
do u know the meaning of love??
i know u feel that is best for u but not the best for me..
and anyhow i prefer friendship then any other relationship..
friendship can last longer than any relationship except family..
i hope u can understant that kk.
i really feel so sorry for u and i hope we are friends forever..^^

GoodBye tO yOu..= =

2010-04-21T14:08:00.000-07:00

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said...

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto

Another 40 more days to enter MMU..

2010-04-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

a day pass very fast..another 40 more days to enter MMU..
my feeling???hmm..sad,worry,excited and so on..
im so sad to leave Mersing-my lovely hometown..my family and my friends..
for me i felt that such a difficult things to find a close friend ...not an easy job to be done.
actuLly im quiet worry of my room mate..haha..sound funny..but that is what i had feel now..
a proverb "a friend inneed is a friend indeed"..frieds is very important when family members all not around besides us...
im excited juz a minor feeling out of so many ..juz excited to know what is U 's life..quiet curious about it...so..juz wait and see ^^

unlucky day..

2010-04-19T22:22:00.000-07:00

Damn iT!!..
tension with my car..
This morning when i wanted to go work..i started my car bt it broke down..
then my father call the workshop to check for me..i waited for an half hour.
fine..at last is done..^^ BUT...
around 11.30,i drove back home to fetch my mum to work..the car make a fool of me..
the car alarm was rang so long..i cant stop it..
i called my dad ..and thw workshop man came again for second time..
i was so tension that time..stupid car!!!..

actually 11 am i got an apointment with my friends..really felt so sorry to them
cuz they waited for me so long..i told them that we postpone to tomorrow..

today such an unlucky day for me...!!!!!!!!!
HATE IT!!!

future..

2010-01-04T08:55:00.000-08:00

tired think of it...FUTURE..
when we study in secondary school ,i thought of study hard to success in future..but after spm,we think about what course we wanted to take??...what do we like???what would be happen in our future??what jobs makes us earn more money???
to many question in my mine to think about that..even though is a holiday ;waiting for the results,but most of the time i will always worry about it..haizz...
hope that god will show the best way for me to continue the journey of life...AMEN

plkn!!!!!

2009-07-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

haiz...i got PLKN...so sad hear about that..i dun really expect i will got it but God want me to go...no choice la...when i know about that my mood immediately change..from gud to bad...so suffer if we go..that is my thought about PLKn...

what i do feel??

2009-06-28T09:46:00.001-07:00

what do i feel now??i feel sad.happy,worried and so on...dun really how to described the feelings.haha...going to feel sad cause my cousin going to further her study...haizz...seems empty at home ..really feel something gone ...may b this also known as life....but i hope she will be strong there cuz no one there 24 hours take care of her...i will pray for her ...may god bless her!!

haizzz....

2009-06-05T06:16:00.000-07:00

i felt so sad have a friend do this to me and my friends...i really dun understand y he can change untill like this..because of a gurl???may b ya..i dun mind he is not going to b friend wif me and my friends..but what i mind is the way he treat us make us felt so hurt......he realy dun appreciate what we do for him..haizzz...is this called life???!!!!

........tiRed

2009-06-03T19:14:00.000-07:00

today is a stress day fo rme.haha..cuz my cousin all come back..i need to prepare so many thing for them..is quient fun but tired lo...tommorrow another cousin comeing..hua!!!my house is full of people...is not small quantity of them..is about 13 person...haizzzz....

as a student what should we do??

2009-06-03T18:45:00.000-07:00

everyone past though the life of student..do u think be a student we feel fun??may b is fun juz depand on how u take it and face it..may b is not fun course have too face much much problem ..is so complicated!!

if a frenz treat u like a shit what do u feel??

2009-06-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

a friend who u trust the most done something bad to u ...what is nyour feeling??
do u still wanted to be friend wif him or her???what is your respone??

do u feel we need love??

2009-06-03T07:47:00.000-07:00

mY liFe

2009-06-03T07:02:00.000-07:00

today i juz created a blog,,haha..i find that have a blog is quiet fun cuz can share alot of thing ...i hope that i can share my problem or hapiness in this...